What if the happiness he rarely brings worth a hundred times the pain he often causes?
The vision in front of me blurs
I see fractions of the life you had before
My own thoughts are like stars I can’t fathom into constellations
Those scattered facts and imaginations inevitably blend, chaotically
And as I rub my eyes, I took your words in
I let you in
If only I had a bigger heart
If only I had a clearer conscious
If only you meant what you say
Our time together was too short. I can’t believe that after 4 years of adapting, we still haven’t been able to work out our differences.
God knows how much I love you and how much I want to make it work.
I make mistakes. And apparently, the last one cost me you.
I regret to have done what I did. I question my own actions that day. I replay the scenes over and over again in my head. But most of all, I resent you for not having the will to try more.
I wish you would’ve reasoned with me. I wish you would’ve just be mad at me. I wish you would’ve just not call me for some time. Just not…gave up so easily.
But hey, I can wish for a lot of things to happen and none of them granted.
So I guess, this is goodbye…